i was so pissed just now!
GRR.
i feel like boxing her face man.
urgh!
stupid.
she got the same blog skin as me ok!
wthwthwthwthwth
i love this blogskin so much and of all ppl she must have it.
why isit so fated i ask you?
whywhywhywhy
this is so unfair.
it was my first time visiting her blog.
and when i saw it i got the biggest shock of my life.
ok.actually this is such a small materliatistic matter
but still.
urgh.
and someone still tagged saying hey nice blog skin.
DUH.like duhhh.its nice.wth man.
any how dare you steal my skin! >< and the worst part is i cant complain to anyone cos then ppl will know!
this is so irritating!

ok.breathe in.breathe out.count to 10 and smile(:

ok.i feel better.
my anger has subsided.when i see her tmr,
it will all be back agn!
i m so mean.
its not even her fault.
its just fate.
ok.whatever man.

anw come, i got to say this,
i just foundout that the police, can do what mrs ong does in sch.
they can see your screen.
thats how they catch those bad ppl.
so cool eh.
what if they are seeing my screen now?
OK.HELLO.HELLO(:
have a goodnight police!

whatever man.
anw i think i got food poisoning ><>< size="2">when i am reflecting here.
i jus got to recieve your msg.
"you have not smsed me for the past few days and i hate you"
should i say thankyou(:
DAMN.
ok.i was thinking of not replying.
but that wld make matters worse.
i am actually quite used to you doing this to me.
when did you get so protective?
i am not gonna act apologetic and say sorry lah and put a fake 'haha' there.
my reply was, "you also never"
ok.i am actually quite proud of myself.
cos if you know me well enough, you willl know that i will never sent that type of msg.
......
ok not bad.
being truthful actually works.
cos now YOU understand.
(:
you replied.and i replied.and you replied and i replied
i didnt think it wld be this way.haha
i thought it wld be a cold war
eh, quite happy eh.haha
i think i scared you with my reply ><>

anw yeah.back to mingjin.
i am afraid i wont have that satisfaction when i hand over next year.
and that thought scares me.
it is already getting so tough now.
whatmore when more things start piling.
think abt it.
there isn't even any homework now.

it is this paragraph that keeps appearing in my mind.
" Here, i sincerely wish you best of luck for your nxt one year.i hope that you can experience some of my sense of satisfaction when you hand over nxt year. Satisfied that you have done your best for the board, satisfied at the tremendous amount of effort put in, satisfied at the lessons learnt, the successful funcions, the skills you taught the overall ics that have helped them greatly etc etc.
tears of joy, sorrow and anger.
savour the happy moments.
Adios!

mingjin,
Head of Special Functions 2006
Cedar Prefectorial Board Execcutive Commitee "

i am happy that you didnt let go fully and leave me stranded and clueless.
but i know you wont and cant be there forever.
its about time i step up and rise up to the challenge.
(:
yes.i will do it.
the cedar prefectorial board executive commitee 06/07 will do it together(:
just like we promised to.
promises are meant to be kept and we will keep it.
when i hand over next year,
trust me,
i will have many stories to tell whoever is taking over me.
i wonder who.
it one of those sixteen.
hehh.
i should stop thinking abt handing over.
cos i just took over.
TSK.
nxt year when i hand over i will refer back to this post(:
i wont let you down.
i will do you and me proud.
we will do it togethe(:
someday i will tell you,
thankyou for being there.

oh.this is random but i always try to say thankyou instead of thanks.
cos somebody once told me, (i wonder who)
that if you really mean thankyou.
then you wld bother to type it out fully.
so at times when i dont mean it,
i just put thanks! haha.oops!
lucky nobody reads my blog ah.
i like it this way.
i like my privacy, my space(:

ok.i better get going.
still must study for belay sch >< size="2">When you feel all alone,
And a loyal friend is hard to find,
You're caught in a one-way street,
With the monsters in your head.
When hopes and dreams are far away,
And you feel like you cant face the day.

Because there has always been heartache and pain,
And when its over you'll breathe again.
You'll breathe again.

yes, i'll breathe again someday
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