Oh and I had like the worst gastric pain ever that day cos, of not eating anythg till supper the previous day. Served me right. Totally learnt my lesson, trust me. Anw, so we all parted rather grumpily around 3pm after it finallyyyy ended! Hah.

Then Jam, Ken, mil and I went for judith's birthday party! The three of us fell in love with the swing outside her house. Haha. (: Okay, monday was family day, i think and the start of my horrible food poisoning episode. Tuesday, wednesday and thursday was class chalet. Our chalet was rather screwed but ohwell, at least we caught up on sleep. Haha.

Omg, wait. I baked a brownie cake for the BBQ that day and totally convinced myself that I shd stop studying and open a bakery! (: HAHA, yeah righttt. Omg, but the end product totally surprised me and I was so proud of it for like the rest of the day! HAHA. I've totally out done myself. HAHA. Anw, so Jam, ken, mil, mab and I slept over at Mr Goh's house on the first night. His dog named BOMB (HAHA) is so cute please. Anw, mr Goh brought us to geylang for nice breakfast in his sports car. Omg, it's damn fast. HAHA, i was not scared okay, mildred ang!! I was just hmm... shocked? Haha. Oh we played Mahjong the night before. You know honestly, i always thought MJ was a aunty game and hated it when my dad plays it during CNY. But, after you've learnt it its totally addictive and damnnn fun. Okay, its not very aunty anymore. Jam and I won 3 out 3 rounds. Beginners luck? Zai? :D

Oh, and eve, mil and I went for a dip in the chalet pool after it was closed and i dont know why but, I found it very fun. HAHA. Its just the thrill of doing something you shldnt be doing. I never thought of going into the pool till it was closed. Okay, but some guy blowed the whistle and we had to come out. That part was rather unglam and not very nice. Oh, it was the neighbouring chalet of our PC farewell chalet two years back. The one, with the very sad handing over ceremony and the Rose song. The one, after which we never saw our snrs again and realised that it was our turn to step up. The one, that jen and I had to throw the roses out of the 2nd floor window. The one, that buddy and I planned such silly games for. The one I had to spend the night studying Amaths cos there was retest the next day. The one, the day before registration. The super happening one. [omg, i'm eating frozen watermelon cubes now. :DD Shit, forgot to dig the seeds out. :/ yuck.] Anw, friday evening was choopise's band concert at VJ!(Did you check out the moon that night?! The full moon was prettiest i've ever seen!!) (: Got to talk to Jiang after almost forever. Yay, i miss her! We were so late and i'm so sorry for being the latest! Haha. Anw, gillian was like the star of the show la. She didnt even tell us that she was going to give a speech and I totally fogot that she was the vice-p. Woah, zai choopsie. She's the big G right, choopsie? HAHA. Anw, we went to give her flowers after the performance and almost every corner we turned, we saw cedarians. Omg, i saw syikin!! We had a long tight hug, as usual. Hah (: Anw, the performance made me realise how much I really do miss performning. Handbell (I actually miss handbell :O), Drama, Violin. Planning for the pf. Rehearsals after rehearsals. Perfectionism. The sweat and tears. The night before the actual day. The moment. & the moment right after! The celebration. (: I miss hearing the cedar band, cedar choir and handbell.

Anw, alright then the weekends were spent at marina mandarin cos my mum booked a couple of rooms there. The marina/ flyer view was pretty and all but, the city is just so bustling 24/7 that it got abit annoying at night. There were like billions of cars still zooming around way past midnight. Maybe, it wldnt have been annoying if I hadnt insisted on reading at the balcony. HAHA, but really spore is too busy for its own good. Oh, but there were 14 stars on saturday night! :D Anw, the only nice part was having marina sq and suntec at your doorstep. Haha. Yay, i really enjoyed family time though. (: I think, everyones been getting funnier lately!

Okay, next week's another busy week and I really hope to get started with some revision. Hope. Haha. I'm forever hoping. Goodluck.

Anw, here's a nice outdated picture. (:

One week of no training has already had its impact on the weighing scale! D: dieeee.

When sch reopens and trng starts again, I think, i'll be panting after warm ups. Double die.

But, I cant seem to drag my lazy ass to the gym and I cant seem to stop munching 24/7 either. Help. Omg, wheres my asics?

Okay, goodbye, farewell. (:

"I think of conar and me; how quickly a moment of love was snapped away into a moment of hate. One comment to steal it all away. Of how love and war stand upon tthe very same foundations. How, in my darkest moments, my most fearful times, when faced, became my bravest. When feeling at your weakest you end up showing more strength, when at your lowest are suddenly lifted above higher than you've ever been. They all border one another, those opposites, and how quickly we can be altered. Everything is one the verge, always brimming the surface, a slight shake, a tremble send things toppling. How similar emotions are."

"How quickly such comfort with someone can shift to awkwardness. How in the very second you reach a dead end, moments when you are convinced you know exactly where you're going are altered. A realistation is less than a second. A flicker."

I love a book that makes you read so fast that you feel almost breatheless and leaves you in tears. (: Books that put words to feelings and emotions, and just keep you thinking through the night, even after you're done reading are a wonder.

There are times when everything you see reminds you of something; a memory. And then, you think twice about whether you can/should/want to speak about it. About whether you'd be judged upon what you're gonna say. If the people around you would even want to hear of it. Here's something the world lacks; patience. And well, theres also the fact that noone will ever be more interested in your life than yourself. Hard to accept but true, i guess. Ohwell, and then you just decide to shut up and swallow the words. Lock the memories back where they came from. Not worth the risk. Too many Ifs. & then, sometimes you just end up wondering if that memory was really as good as you make it to be. Like, you're bombarded with thoughts and end up just so confused. Then, you raise the white flag. You just give up. Felt it before? So raddddd.