Sometimes when you make the same old wishes at 11:11 and you open your eyes to see that its already 11:12, do you feel the slightest bit of worry and regret, hoping you hadnt been so naggy and more straight to the point? Greed in its infinite manifestations.

Yay, its the 1st of august; chime at noon time (:
Godma's surprise bday party later. St james flea tmr. I miss saap. School's such a waste of time. A02 is an awesome class! Juang and I had three tau sar piahs yesterday and one everyday, for the past week. Yay three cheers for sweet nothings and a whole of calories. I wish I was in hogwarts with harry. At least, i would have saved Dumbledore. And i can be hagrid's bestf and play with his drangons. Oh and i'll have so much of dessert to eat! Btw, we smuggled a whole roast chicken into the theatre! Hah. two weeks to prelims. I wish I could borrow harry's time turner. Anw, pufferfish said sthg really funny on her blog. "She forced me to stare at the star-less sky and say, yes, i see stars!" HAHA, omg she makes me sound like an idiot. But reallyreally, the harder you stare into the dark sky, the more stars you see. Nobody wants to believe me. ): I'm going to prove my point someday yay!

I believe that god is fair, really. But sometimes, i cant help but doubt my belief. I know its wrong but I cant help it. Seeing the hurt that goes around, love seems so unfair. I hate how love makes people so self sacrificial, how it makes one put their own pride down. I hate how one can end up so hurt in it. I hate to see it bring people down and destroy them esp, when they are my friends. I think its so unfair how loving deeply can bring with it so much hurt. Its so so unfair. Wheres all the joy and peace its suppossed to bring? If you love someone, you'll never feel angry at them, you'll feel disappointed. You wont hurl insults and cry red hot tears of angst, you're heart will cringe, ache and tear. But sometimes, these theories dont stand. Cos reality and simplistic ideals always seem worlds apart. People are complicated and so is love. I guess? Everything happens for a reason, perhaps. Yes, j&I are going to be psychologist and figure them all out. (:

Wait, mb i'll decide to migrate to newzealand when i'm 25 and be a farmer! Yay, then i can grow and eat kiwis & grapes all day. But even then, i'll have to watch out for the pests, eco control, diseases, seasons, irrigation, floods, droughts, demand, supply, mkt control etc. Oh sighs. Nvm i'll think of sthg. okay goodbye! I love saturday mornings. comments